Restless

...Patiently waiting for the words you never said
Tried to laugh but cried instead...
Making use of all this time, keeping all this things inside
I'm not giving up, i'm making your love,
This city makes us crazy

I guess that is it.
The answer to three months of attending classes, reading tons of materials, taking notes, diligently waiting, structuring patterns in mind, drinking numbers of saccharine and caffeine, and unlimited worries.

That's it?
Does it end in here? No, don't give up. There are still chances. Make use all this time. Give spare for God. You did your share, now its His time. The point of ressurection. There is only so much to go through after this.

You are a fighter, dont give up. Dont rest. Dont take leisure time. Not yet. Not right now. Dont let regrets happens in the future for not giving your best shot right now. Another week. That's it. After that, you're free to do anything that you want.

Isn't this what you want? Isn't this what you yearn? The endless work and challenges? Isn't that what makes you feel alive? Dont get torn apart now. Not now. Not yet. This is not the end of the road. This is the beginning.

I know how bored you are. I know how it feels to re-read the same materials for the 4th times. But look at how much you have learned. Don't be pragmatic. This will be useful in the future, no matter what road you choose. You dont know what it means now. And no, i am not trying to fool you.

Take a break, but dont take too long of a time. You still have another 7 days. You still have another 84 hours. That is not quite long compared to 3 months. Bear with it. Look at how interesting it is. Look at the opportunity to be engaged in all the conversations that you attended but were not involved. Look at the new interest and friends you will have. Look at the horizons.

Look at the future. Look at how you will be able to apply it in your work. Remember your first work as an attorney? When you don't know what you were doing? Look at how much you have changed. Look at how many of your times are not wasted in here. Look at how fulfilling this materials are to your craving.

Isn't this the answer? Don't you see how suddenly all the movies makes sense? All those movies that you dreamt to be doing?

Ok..I'll try to do it.