this year's raya

and i heard the takbir,
saying God's Almighty's name,
and the prophet's name,
to celebrate the winner's glory.

another year without glory...
another year without the sacrificial fasting,
another year alone.

this year,
i forgive once again they who have hurted me,
and i shall beg forgiveness for those that i have hurt.

and the memories came back again,
of all the families,
that has passed away,
they to whom i could not beg for forgiveness anymore,
they whom i could not see anymore.

and when my whole family is celebrating,
i, the faithful departed,
the great loser,
is alone in here....