i have an image of a vagina buried to a character's face. and the image keeps on flashing to my mind.is this my defense mechanism to accept a fact? perhaps. i don't know what to do, but to write down my feelings, analyze the source, and face it. every time the image comes, i feel a sudden disgust. and a feeling of not belonging to such fact. maybe i should just think of it as a beauty, of a surrendering act. maybe that means that i should unblock my resistance of receiving oral sex. or maybe this image means that i should try to accept the fact that i have a vagina. until then, i should just life with the maybes.