i wish these things doesn't remind me of him

i am trying to forget my dear friend,
and it has only been two days since i have stopped communicating with him,
but God was it hard,
i hope it will get easier along the way.

i wish that the fact that benjamin franklin wrote a book about farting, founded two of the pioneer public library in united states, and erected university of pennsylvania didn't reminded me of him.
i wish that i do not wished that he was beside me when i looked at all the maps from 15,16, 17, and 18 century that showed all the colony areas.
i wish it was not his name that came up when i hang out with my friend from business school whom apparently knew that he is serving this country (oh who art thou, catherine quay?)
oh most of all,
how i wish that he remembers me as much as i remember him.

sun tzu once says that a great soldier wins a fight without fighting. and here i am, i am not fighting my feelings or the fact that i remember him. i have stopped fighting. i am letting them flow, with the hope that it will wash over me.

and i know i'm going to get through this, just like daniel beddingfield's song that i keep on singing, along with the fact that he doesn't choose me to be the one to be beside him.