when you're happy...

people come after you.it is as if they want to be infected with that sort of happiness from you. and there comes mike, and derek, and jason, and so many others. they were enchanted by smile and carefree way of living. so what after this? what if the days get gloomy and dark? what if i stopped being happy? will they still be there? which is the reason why i shall only stand for a true and tested person. the one who has seen me through thick and thin and decided to stay. the one who still stand beside me despite of all my tumultuous drama. the one who becomes my rock. the one who lets me do my mistake and wipe my tears. the one that i haven't found yet. for everyone leaves. no one puts up with me. until that day comes, which i don't think will ever come, i am lookimg inside. looking outwards never satisfies me anyway. so why bother? and what i found out is amazing. that once inside, all my needs are fulfilled. there is no boundaries for what myself could fulfill. who needs a lover, when the greatest love is from yourself?